Sorry I haven't had a chance to post till now, we were stuck at Stanford, and then in traffic all day yesterday. And then my brother, sister-in-law, and nephews came in late last night. Anyhow...the visit to Stanford went well. It started with meeting a potential plastic surgeon to go over various reconstructive options and just to feel him out. Going in there I had all but decided to push back the reconstructive surgery, and after talking with Dr. Lee, I feel even more confident that that's the right thing to do. After we met w/Dr. Lee, we then met my breast surgeon, Dr. Wapnir, and signed a consent form to schedule surgery for Wednesday, August 27th. I have decided to have the double mastectomy, and now that the decision has been made, the decision feels right. You know when you're at a restaurant and you're having trouble deciding between 2 things and then order 1 of them and as the waiter walks away, you regret your choice? Well, that didn't happen to me. I gave this a great deal of thought. I talked to a lot of people. I researched as much as I could handle and it might sound like I'm trying to justify my decision but it feels right to me. I just don't think I'm going to be comfortable any other way. Now I can move on to the next hurdle.
I want you all to know something...I don't have an impending sense of doom or like I have a dark cloud following me. I haven't asked "why me?" I just want to get through this, and get back to living a life that I love. That's how it is for me. I'm trying to focus on what's important, and this situation has made it abundantly clear as to what is important to me. Living. Living and my commitment to my life and the people that I love and want more time with. You, reading this.
Sorry I don't have time to write more, there's a lot going on right now. Thank you all for your support, encouragement, and love.
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Hey you guys,
It is always good to hear what is going on with you. Deb, it sounds like you have made some decisions that you are happy with and I am so glad for you. It also sounds like you have some good doctors and that they are taking the time to explore options with you. You can never tell what you would do in a situation like this until you are there, but I think I would have made the same decisions as you. Being well and able to move past this is most important. My family and I love you all and are thinking of you all the time. You are such an incredible example of strength and softness at the same time. Kisses and hugs from all of us.
You are such an amazing woman, and pillar of strength. Your post was a reminder of what is important in life. I hope that we can help support you if ever you need a boost.
You and your family are in my thoughts constantly.
Zak
I am so glad that you were able to come to a decision that you feel confident about and you are at peace with. I am sure that is a huge weight off your shoulders. Deb, I am astounded by the grace and positive attitude you have faced this with. Well, maybe astounded isn't the right word, because astounded means shocked, and knowing you, I wouldn't imagine anything less. You are such an incredible lady and I thank my lucky stars to consider you and your beautiful family my friends. And Howie, as always, you just rock, my dear!
Hugs to you all!
(oh, and a very dear friend of mine did the tummy to boob reconstruction...sorry, I am sure there is a better way to term that, but I don't know what it is...anyway, I am sure she would be very happy to talk to you about it when you are ready to start thinking about that)
Hey there! It sounds like things are moving right along! Yeah! And you've got the absolute best attitude -- not dwelling but doing what you need to do to get past this so you can just live your life!
We continue to send hugs and love across the miles!
Chantel & Family
Hi Deb,
Did you happen to see the recent interview with Christina Applegate? She was not my favorite actress back in her "Married with Children" days, but I really like her new show, "Samantha Who?". Anyway, you are both brave, beautiful women facing the same choices and decisions. And you, too, "will now have cute boobs 'til you're 90!"
love, Nora
I am so happy you made the decision, and I have no doubt in my mind it is the right one. Move forward with every confidence that you are doing the right thing and that it will result in the best outcome, which is you being totally healthy and able to get back to the life you so much enjoy.
It great to hear that you made a decision, and we are all going to be around you in whatever you might need.. You once said it and it's true, you have the right attitude about life, and you are showing us all what it means to stay strong, beautiful, and determined the way you are!!!!.
Howie, you ROCK!! and we love you so much, and Deb you have the sweetest Mom in the whole world, she loves you so much, you could just see it in her teary eyes. Please give her a big hug for me.
Love you beautiful!
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